Last night I had a dream your veins wrapped around my throat. Tightening with each word I whimpered through pursed lips. I couldn’t see your face but I knew it was you and everywhere your disgusting hands touched left bubbled burned skin it’s it wake. I tried to close my eyes, count to ten, wake myself up. But it just restarted the sick night mare over and over and soon I found myself laying in bed covered in my own tears and sweat, seconds from hurling the empty contents of my stomach all over the floor.

I don’t know how many more of these nights I can handle.

I feel myself tempted to care. To sit here and ramble about the pointless shit building up, but I just can’t ha. My life is just beginning and I don’t really want to spend my time bitching and moaning over people who don’t care, things that don’t matter, and situations that I have no need nor want to be apart of. You all feed on the negativity oozing out of each other’s pores and I seriously hope that one day you all clear the haze in your minds because it’s dark in that hole you’re digging for yourselves.

Tripped over my feet to plummet to my death, I get snagged on a branch that’s slowly cracking beneath my weight. Digging my nails into the unchurned earth, I beg and plead for someone, something to catch me. I hear the crack, my stomach drops, the branch snaps, my neck breaks.

mulletsmakememoist asked:

1, 2, 7, 13, 22, 25, 33, 35. I love your full name it's gorgeous, just like you

Oh goodness you are such a doll, ♥  

1. How old do you think you’ll be when you get married?
Mid twenties probably.
2. Do you know a hoarder?
Not really but my step father is quite the pack rat.
7. What would you name your daughter if you had one?
Oh goodness I have so many pretty names, but I won’t share them all. One of them would be Orianna.
13. Are your grandparents still married?
They’ve been together since they were 15, that’s true love.
22. Do you eat breakfast every morning?
Not usually.
25. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own?
Eep.. I have no clue. Anywhere between fifteen or twenty.
33. Where are you from?
I was born in Chatsworth, but my heritage is German and Italian.
35. Are you wearing any make up right now?
Nope! 

Anonymous asked:

14 15 16

14. Biggest turn offs?
Being too gentle, when people don’t groom themselves, ignorance, close mindedness.

15. Biggest turn ons?
Being straight forward, being rough, dirty talk.

16. I’ll love you if?
You touch my neck, play with my hair, make me tea, or cuddle and watch anime with me.